Thought

Sorry for late update, i have been busy b4 CNY till now...n seldom on9 to update blog, juz read few blog n check mail, but tis few days, i have a very bad mood, for quite a long period, i have a messy mind, i got no idea wat shud i do for next, my decision might hurt some1, i noe u will hate me alot n alot, mayb u wont forgive me, or u wont take me as ur fren anymore. the oni thgs i can say is sorry, but i noe u wont accept it, but i noe i need to walk out from this, if not my life will not b a happi life. Recently, especially midnite, when i listening to music, my tears will drop down, my mind will turn somethg out, that makes me feels bad, n cry badly.
i hope n wish all this bad feeling will end up 1 day, so that i can alwiz stay smiling:)
New year New life!!!

tired of work..

今天我的同事把我弄哭了，他说我做人很矛盾，什么都要靠别人，自己做不了主，有时又怕做太多，要要求人做又不敢，是不是很矛盾？我知道我是这个社会的新鲜人，我什么都不会，又常常被笑，我很不喜欢那种感觉。慢慢我又开始觉得我变了很多，变得没耐心，小小的事就好像要弄到很大。我的性格慢慢变得很野，什么都要赢，不可以这样！脾气也越来越硬，雯，以前的你不是这样的，你要把好的留下，不好的统统丢掉，好好去沉思，什么应该改，什么要留下。
有时我会开始觉得这个社会会给我带来压力，不知是为了什么。不管人或事，我都必须好好去打好关系，每一件事情都要没有缺陷的做好，今天早上，我们开会，我所有的同事，都知道我是一个大头虾，事情一定会出差错，可是每一次我都希望我可把事情做好，其实每一次我很怕你们踩我，我的心中都会有一种失落感，对自己做的东西没有信心。
其实我很想的得到你们的肯定，可一直都在努力，可是就是得不到成功。好累哦！！

^^

this few days although i feel bit presssure of work, but some1 is bside me to support me, and alwiz think for me, think for my health and also my safety, feel very warm, and sweet..^^...i found tat i bcum happier den b4, is all bcoz of u...thanks bie, thanks for understand me o...thanks for let me feel tat i m very xing fu, although u not bside me, but ur heart is with me...thank u very muc..

hmm...

This few days is quite moody, but luckily some1 that really care is alwiz bside me...thanks ya my dear, life is alwiz like tat got happy and also got sadness, but the most important is muz learn from everythg tat we do daily im our life...
Thanks God that alwiz prepare some1 to take k of me, so tat i wont feel alone when i need someone bside..

haihzz

work work work!!! i need rest, but i still can stand for it la..but sometime i really tired...but thank God, luckily my boss still will think for his staff,hehe...when i work, i start to feel stress, too many thgs in my mind tat i need to do it, hope to find some1 to share, my colleague is quite pity, coz i alwiz catch him to 'ngo'..haha...he start to complain i keep 'ngo' him after i finish my 'bla bla speech'...lol...luckily i still feel happy to work here la...juz somekind of tired oni...but anyway, stress can make me lose weight...haha...i success lo...hehe..i m getting slimmer lor..haha...i will get slimmer on 24 dec...hiak hiak...hmm...my eyes so heavy...so i think i need more sleep lor...k..till here...good nite..

Keep Fit!!!!

Currently my colleague, my frens and my family complaint me getting fatter n fatter, hmm...wandering how come i keep fit also useless, weight keep increasing, haihzz....juz now find bac those pic find out i really put on weight serious.


These is me b4 putting on weight



These pics is me after put on weight.
Now i try my best to keep fit, but sometimes really control hardly.haihz...
Wish me good luck n can keep fit successfully...haha..