I'm sorry

很多事情发生，都是我从来没有意识到的！我也很久没那么痛过了！那种感觉真的刺痛了我。不管谁对我都好，我知道在大家的心中我已经不是当初你们所认识的那个晓雯了，不过我也同时很想跟你们讲我还是原来的我，因为我已经抽身出来了。虽然真的很痛，可是我知道我应该怎么做。昨晚你告诉我，我是一个很幸福的小孩，是在温室里长大的小孩，所以我都没什么烦恼，我也承认。这是事实！其实我没必要把这么小的事哭到这么惨，拿来痛，还有很多东西要等我去完成，等我去学习，再哭下去，也不会有人可怜你的！所以你自己真的要坚强起来！知道吗！我要向所有的人说一声对不起，我知道错了，原谅我可以吗？

Friend and Love

This was a story from my friend……
It is about Love and Friend.
One day,LOVE and FRIEND go out 4 a walk
Suddenly,LOVE fall into a deep river.
U know why???
That’s becouse LOVE is blind ……
Then ,FRIEND quickly jump into the river to save LOVE
Why???
Because GOOD FRIEND will be always be there for us whenever,wherever,and whatever we need ……
But therefore,FRIEND couldn’t find LOVE
U know why??
Because LOVE is too gentle,easy to lost when we didn’t take care of it……
Finally ,FRIEND give up and leave the love there.
Why???
Because FRIEND will leave and lost if we don’t know how to appreciate them……

是否

是否这次我将真的离开你
是否这次我将不再哭
是否这次我将一去不回头
走向那条漫漫永无止境的路
是否这次我已真的离开你
是否泪水已干不再流
是否应验了我曾说的那句话
情到深处人孤独
多少次的寂寞挣扎在心头
只为挽回我将远去的脚步
多少次我忍住胸口的泪水
只是为了告诉我自己
我不在乎!!

复杂的心情

有个学生问老师什么是爱情？老师就要他到田里去寻找一颗他自己认为最大最好的玉米，然后将它带回来，条件是他只有一次选择权，且只能往前走不能回头。学生遵命的稻田里去了，当他见到第一颗生长的非常漂亮的玉米时，他心里想。或许后面会有更好的等着他。于是他一直走，一直挑，到最后他发现自己再也找不到比第一颗玉米还要好的，结果他空手而回。【这就是爱情，你一路挑，一路走，一直期望能找到更好的，结果你可能变得一无所有】学生又问什么是婚姻？这一回老师要他带回稻米，而条件亦和之前一样。由于有了第一次教训，学生走到中途便选了一颗不好也不坏的稻米，带回给老师。老师说【这就是婚姻，爱情路上跌跌撞撞，让人学会选择。不好不坏，对那个学生而言或许是最好的。】【人永远不懂得珍惜身边所拥有的，却一直渴望着那未知的将来。等到伤痕累累，才明白什么才是自己所要的，最适合自己的】
这篇文章，我看了又看，读了又读，我不知道我现在的选择是对还是错，为什么这几天你都不找我？爱和被爱，你选择什么？爱情和现实只是一线之差，人家说被爱是幸福的，为什么我总觉得爱你才是幸福的呢？我一直在挣扎，所以我迟迟都不敢找你，我找不到一个答案。我也不敢拖着你。
也許愛情是一部憂傷の童話
♂放棄一個很愛你の人 並不痛苦♀
♂放棄一個你很愛の人 那才痛苦♀
♂愛上一個不愛你の人 那是更痛苦♀
♀逃避 不一定躲得過♂
♂面對 不一定最難過♀
♀孤單 不一定不快樂♂
♂得到 不一定能長久♀
♀失去 不一定不再擁有♂
★愛是一種是思念★?無論何時何地 當看不到她/她の時候會想念她/他
★愛也會是一種擔心★?當他/她出事の時候 你會比誰都著急
★愛是一種包容★?你會包容她/他所有の缺點 在你眼裡他/她永遠是最完美の
★愛更是一種回憶★?當你想起她/她做出可愛 浪漫の事時 會不知覺の傻笑
★覺得好甜蜜 好甜蜜★?你體會到了嗎 如果沒有就放棄 重新開始吧 祝福你

Thought

Sorry for late update, i have been busy b4 CNY till now...n seldom on9 to update blog, juz read few blog n check mail, but tis few days, i have a very bad mood, for quite a long period, i have a messy mind, i got no idea wat shud i do for next, my decision might hurt some1, i noe u will hate me alot n alot, mayb u wont forgive me, or u wont take me as ur fren anymore. the oni thgs i can say is sorry, but i noe u wont accept it, but i noe i need to walk out from this, if not my life will not b a happi life. Recently, especially midnite, when i listening to music, my tears will drop down, my mind will turn somethg out, that makes me feels bad, n cry badly.
i hope n wish all this bad feeling will end up 1 day, so that i can alwiz stay smiling:)
New year New life!!!

life..

Now is 3.35am 29 Dec 2008, 2 more days den new year, wat have to done for the past few months??虚度光阴? wat i have learn???wat hard tat i have been to?? wat ppl tat i meet b4...

today i bac home at 2.30am 29 Dec, go sing k with frens, after the k i feel so empty in my own, i nearly wanna cry out, but luckily my fren make me laugh so tat i din cry out, i so disappointed after i heard somethg from others, really...but anyway non of my business ady, so i hav to learn to dun k too muc, so tat i can live more happily, yesterday morning around 2 am, i chatting with bao ge, he is goin to married tis coming tuesday, wish him have a wonderful marriage life...he is quite a easygoin person, n a person tat nice to tok with. laz nite he tell me a quote make me feel meaningful - change another 'degree' den u will c somethg diff...yeah, i need to c a thgs with many diff degree so tat i can c whole incident...and many thgs have many way to be happen..n many reason.diff 'dimension' is diff from 1 another..God, please help me to get more n more understand my self...help me to improve myself in diff ways...thanks God for listen to my prayer, in Jesus name Amen...

i bac home late, nearly no door to come in ar, suddenly feel so scare when i not in house, nearly wan cry out, no ppl is accompany me, den when i m realy down and suddenly feel that my family and sweet home is the best way to hide from those stupid annoying thgs...home sweet home...

silent nite of 2008, i feel peaceful, calm is in my heart, tis year, can say is 'lonely' christmas, pass few years, i will celebrate with my special 1, but tis year is quite alone, but luckily, my church frens, my gang of frens ask me out to celebrate together so that i wont feel so lonely,actually i wish tat u could stay with me, i miss u, really miss u, but....anyway, i noe ur hard...mayb i need to be more understanding...sorry to bring so muc trouble to u..sorry, but i juz wan to let u noe tat i miss u..